And then, she slept…
I fell asleep pretty quickly and didn’t wake up during the night. I was able to sleep in a little bit, which hasn’t been something I’ve been able to do for a while due to my racing brain. Even though I slept, I don’t feel rested.
I did actually felt pretty calm for much of the morning. But now I’m starting to feel a little bit of, “holy shit…this is really over.” Yeah, I’m usually kind of slow to catch on to the obvious.
It’s just so surreal to think that the Baron will never be in my life again. Not because he can’t, but because he won’t. Last night was the last time I’ll see the Baron and I couldn’t even look at him.
5-1/2 weeks ago, all I wanted was to spend my life with him.
Now all I want is to forget him.