Still passing the open windows and falling down the stairs

Spring cleaning

Things have been changing in my life and where in the past I would have wanted to post about them here, I haven’t wanted to even open this site. The knowledge that all of the ugly break up posts were sitting here waiting for me was too much to handle.

I wrote in such detail about my sucker punch to the heart last year, but now I don’t like the idea of sharing MY SPACE with that ugliness. I’m happy and don’t want to wallow in the pain of my past.

So, I’m in the process of changing many of my past posts from public to private. I just need that recovery phase of my life to be mine alone, should I ever need to revisit it. Please forgive me if you offered up any wisdom in the form of comments that has now disappeared. But know that I appreciated your support when it was needed.

Thankfully, it’s no longer necessary.

I’m still on the job hunt, but the broken heart has healed and I’m pretty much at a place of forgiveness and peace. I hope that the Baron is able to figure himself out someday and I honestly hope that he can find happiness.

As for me, I have a new friend who I am enjoying getting to know slowly. And I will be keeping that part of my life private. As it should be.

The clean slate club

As much as I have tried to dig my heels in and keep change out of my life recently, I have to accept that some change is inevitable.

There was a time, not so long ago, when I thought the unexpected change of losing the Baron might break me. So, I made the naïve plan to avoid major change for at least six months. Unfortunately, that’s not really the way the world works.

It’s the second month of 2012 and I am single and unemployed.

In retrospect, I’m really not sure how any of this happened. They say that things become clearer from a distance, but that is not my experience. At least not yet.

But, as sad as I was to have resigned from a company that I had been with for ten years (and for which I still hold a great deal of respect), I believe that it was a move I needed to make in order to clear the path for something new.

My life is on a completely new trajectory and I am holding out hope that all of my recent changes will become the starting point of a more fulfilled life, that is guided by (and not reacted to) by me.

As a member of the clean slate club, I feel that dessert is in order.

Thank you, spam commenter!

This was in my spam folder today, and I think there may be a lesson here:

The next time I read a blog, I hope that it doesn’t disappoint me as much as this one. I mean, I know it was my choice to read, but I actually thought you’d have something interesting to say. All I hear is a bunch of whining about something that you could fix if you weren’t too busy looking for attention.

Amen to that, spammy.

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